disc golf after the garden center, waited until the sun was low enough that the walk from the car didnt feel like another shift
first throw was terrible but my shoulder loosened up after a few, could actually feel the turn through my back instead of just yanking my arm
wrist clicked once, no pain, still stopped doing the throw that makes it happen
sat under a tree and drank the water i had apparently carried around unopened all afternoon
my shirt was damp but the breeze finally felt cool
got home hungry enough to eat the rice straight out of the container before heating the rest, very sophisticated athlete recovery lol

my sister asked me to come look at something she made for school and i said in a minute, then actually went before she had to ask again
she had cleared a space for me on her floor which was weirdly nice, usually i get invited in and have to move seven things just to stand
she wanted my opinion on the pictures, not help fixing anything
i stayed longer than i meant to and felt pretty good after
then mom asked if that meant i could help with another thing tomorrow and i got annoyed immediately
idk why being wanted is nice until it turns into being scheduled
my sister sent me the finished picture later, saved it

looked at permanent county jobs for a while and kept opening ones i already knew i didnt qualify for
very efficient way to say i looked without having to apply to anything
one office assistant posting actually fit most of what ive done, except the way they describe everything makes moving a box sound like managing international logistics
started writing down my actual tasks in normal words first
training new temps counts as something, probably
i keep thinking a permanent job means deciding what the next thirty years look like when really its deciding whether to send one application
still havent sent it, but the tab is open and theres a document now