feuverifie-Mind
J'essaie de prévoir mes jours à terre et mon calendrier est déjà presque aussi serré qu'une rotation. Liège, Bruxelles, une démarche à Anvers, puis les affaires à préparer pour repartir. Sur le papier tout tient, à condition de ne jamais avoir envie de rester quelque part une heure de plus. C'est justement ce qui m'embête. La femme que je vois me reproche parfois de lui donner un créneau plutôt que du temps, et je comprends mieux la différence en regardant cette semaine. Je n'ai pas envie de tout laisser au hasard non plus. J'ai gardé une journée sans trajet. Pour l'instant je résiste assez mal à l'envie de savoir exactement ce qu'on y fera.
ranchdressing-Emotion
referee guy texted first and it was about a game, obviously, nobody is declaring anything in this thrilling documentary. still checked the name twice before opening it like another person might have the same number. i was happy in a stupid way and then annoyed at myself for being happy over twelve words, which seems like unnecessary extra work. told mom somebody had sent a funny clip and she said okay with a face that did not mean okay. replied without insulting the referee for once. now there's a normal conversation sitting on my phone and i keep rereading my own answer to see if it sounds normal. the goat has more social confidence and eats paper
守门员-Mind
英语老师让我们记方位，我一下就记住了左边右边，往球门两边一指就有了，可别的单词还是看着认识，合上书就没了。爸爸说你能记那么多球员，怎么这个记不住，那又不是一样的！球员在电视上跑，单词在本子上不动。我想给每个单词画个小动作，结果一个小人踢球画了半页，十分钟就记了俩，小的还非说我画的是鸭子。后来把卡片贴在门边，经过就念，妈妈端面进来比我念得还快。这个办法可能有用，也可能我只是记住了哪张贴在上面。明天把顺序换一下试试。选拔的事教练今天又提了，我倒没想多久，先把周五听写过了，免得英语老师又去找教练，说我脑子都长在球门上。
northpoint-Emotion
Mother asked whether I still did the little drawings for that young man in Bishop's Castle. I had taken her shopping, carried everything in, and was putting the frozen peas away when she said it. I explained, rather sharply, that they were my drawings and that I was an architect. She said she knew perfectly well what I was. This ought to have settled it. Instead I was cross all the way home, and cross again while unpacking my own shopping. I am sixty-three. It is an absurd age to be waiting for a particular sentence from one's mother, but apparently still within the permissible range.
صبر_جميل-Body
اليوم طولت قدام الماكينة باش نسالي تعديل قفطان لوحدة السيدة، وملي بغيت نوض حسيت ظهري مشدود وبقيت حانية حتى وقفت بشوية. كنقول غير نكمل هاد الجهة ونرتاح، ومن بعد كتبان ليا جهة أخرى خاصها الخدمة، حتى كيسبقني الوقت. ركابي حتى هما تقلو عليا فالدرج، شديت فالحايط وطلعت براحة وما عيطت لراجلـي حيث كان غادي يبدا يقول ليا خلي الخياطة. ما بغيتش نخليها، بغيت غير جسمي يعاونني بلا هاد الوقفة الطويلة كل مرة. من بعد ما تمددت شوية خف الظهر وقدرت نرجع نشوف الخدمة، ولكن ما جلستش نكملها. حطيت القفطان بعيد على عيني باش ما نرجعش نقول غير غرزة ونوض، الله يعطينا الصحة.
provisional-Mind
looked at permanent county jobs for a while and kept opening ones i already knew i didnt qualify for
very efficient way to say i looked without having to apply to anything
one office assistant posting actually fit most of what ive done, except the way they describe everything makes moving a box sound like managing international logistics
started writing down my actual tasks in normal words first
training new temps counts as something, probably
i keep thinking a permanent job means deciding what the next thirty years look like when really its deciding whether to send one application
still havent sent it, but the tab is open and theres a document now
دفتر_رسم-Mind
ضلّيت أتطلع على شبابيك البناية المقابلة للمقهى بدل ما أرسم الفكرة اللي طالعة عشانها. كل شباك معمول عليه تعديل صغير، حبل غسيل أو ستارة زيادة أو نبتة حاجبة نص الضوء، وأنا بعمل مشروعي كأنه الناس رح تسكنه وتحافظ على الصورة اللي براسي. حطيت ملاحظات جنب مخطط الفناء: وين رح ينشفوا الغسيل؟ ومين رح يسمع مين إذا الكل فاتح الشبابيك؟ صارت الفكرة أقل مرتبة بصرياً بس أقرب لبيت أعرفه. بعدين رجعت أتردد، لجنة المشروع ممكن تشوف هالتفاصيل صغيرة مقارنة بالشكل العام. أنا اللي بقول بدي أصمم مكان للعيش، وبنفس الوقت بدي اللوحة تطلع نظيفة وما يكون عليها غسيل. التناقض واضح ومزعج، ولسه مش لاقية حل حلو إله.
mpolampola-Mind
My father asked again about a proper job, then asked what time I needed to leave for work. Both questions in the same conversation. I nearly pointed that out but he had already opened his newspaper. I can explain sets and balance to a client who has never entered a gym, yet with him I start listing certificates as if the next one will finish the discussion. He has seen the diploma. It is on his wall. Maybe when he says proper he means the pay arriving even on a week nobody books a session. That I understand, but I wish he would say that instead of speaking as though I spend the day playing music for myself.
tekyuhtime-Mind
The mason asked how wide I wanted the repaired step and I told him the same as before, only properly done. Then I watched the helper come through carrying a basin and saw that she had to turn sideways around the chair by the door. The step alone is not the whole matter. I measured the passage and wrote the figures in the book so I can show him rather than repeat myself on the phone. He says he remembers. People remember until it is time to bring the materials. The chair can move inside during the work, but my wife likes to see out from that place. That part must stay possible.
ticketclosed-Emotion
My daughter asked me to put the phone away because she hadn't reached point three of her school story. I laughed first, as if she was giving me a performance review, but she didn't laugh with me. Felt quite ashamed then. I had heard the beginning and was waiting for a reply from work, so in my head I was doing both jobs properly. From her side I was looking down while she talked. I kept the phone in the bedroom and asked her to start again, but she said the first part was over already. We did eventually get to point three. I am glad she tells me directly, though it was not pleasant hearing how little attention I had actually given her.