My ex recommended a film to me and I instantly thought, you never listened when I was trying to get you to watch that one. Very mature response to a friendly message. Then we exchanged two fairly funny texts and it was almost like before, which was worse in a different way. There's nobody to be properly furious with when a relationship ends politely. I miss having somebody who gets the small jokes without six lines of explanation; I don't miss pretending it didn't matter when we wanted entirely different evenings. Left his last message unanswered while I worked. Still haven't decided if that's busy or petty.

En désherbant, j'ai essayé de retrouver une phrase que ma grand-mère employait pour me dire de laisser pousser quelque chose avant de décider que c'était une mauvaise herbe. Je me souviens parfaitement de sa voix, pas des mots exacts. J'en ai inventé trois versions, toutes plausibles et aucune certaine. Cela m'agace, parce que j'ai une mémoire assez fidèle des paroles entendues au cabinet, parfois de celles que je préférerais oublier. Peut-être qu'à force de raconter un souvenir on finit par entendre sa propre version. Je pourrais demander à ma sœur, mais je soupçonne qu'elle me donnera encore une autre phrase. La plante que j'étais en train d'arracher est restée là pendant toute cette recherche.

Heute ohne Lieferbox am Fluss gefahren und gleich zu fest losgelegt, weil sich das Rad hinten so leicht anfühlte. Nach der ersten Steigung waren die Oberschenkel warm und ich hatte dieses gute Ziehen, bei dem noch genug Luft zum Quatschen übrig ist, bloß war niemand dabei. Das rechte Knie blieb ruhig, auch später auf der Treppe. Zu Hause hab ich den Hund gebürstet und erst dabei gemerkt, dass meine Schultern gar nicht mehr nach vorne wollten. Kein Gurt, der irgendwo drückt, kein Essen, das gerade kälter wird. Dafür Hundewolle bis in die Socken. Eine kostenlose Zusatzschicht, körperlich überschaubar.

Found a used mixer at a price that makes me want to call right now, except we already have one and the kitchen cupboard doesn't expand when something is a bargain. I'm telling myself this one would handle bigger batches if I ever do a lunch counter. That's a lot of future business depending on a machine in somebody's garage. My cousin asked where it would go and I started moving things mentally off his shelf, which probably answers the question. I saved the listing anyway. Going to make supper with the mixer we own before deciding whether it has suddenly become useless.

Nyanyi di arisan tadi sampai dua lagu, yg pertama masih jaim lalu temannya minta lagi, ya wis tanggung! Baru sadar napas habis waktu harus tahan nada panjang, mulut sudah siap suaranya tinggal separuh hahaha. Pulang baju di punggung agak basah dan pipi panas, suami tanya habis lari apa, bukan lari Pak ini konser! Duduk di teras sambil kipas-kipas rasanya enak, kaki yg biasanya ingin cepat selonjor masih ikut ketuk irama. Tenggorokan kering, saya minum dulu sebelum cerita siapa yg fals. Katanya yg paling keras tentu saya, paling keras belum tentu paling fals lho.

I spent part of the evening sorting picture books on the living-room floor and forgot that my knees no longer consider this a neutral position. When I stood, I had to use the sofa arm and wait before taking the first step. Not a crisis, simply inconvenient. I moved the remaining pile to the table and noticed how much easier it was to breathe without folding myself around a stack of books. The room was warm, my sleeves were pushed up, and I was hungry enough to stop before the pile was finished. My husband found a bookmark stuck to my elbow. At least it was not another label.

I walked down to the kiosk carrying only my lunch, the camera bag already there from yesterday, and it was surprising how often my right shoulder rose as if to keep the strap in place. Even without the weight I was behaving as though I had it. Stopped near the bend to greet a neighbour and stood properly, both arms hanging. The morning air was cool but by the market I was warm under my shirt. My wife said I looked as if I had walked very fast. I had not, there were too many people to greet. Took off the tie until the first customer arrived. It is a good tie, but it cannot expect to be comfortable for every hour of the day.

I'm looking at a holiday on my own and have reached the stage of comparing airport transfers instead of deciding whether I actually want to go. Very productive procrastination, fully colour-coded if necessary. The hotel reviews keep saying it's lovely for couples, which probably means it has double beds and not a committee checking your marital status at breakfast. Still, I keep trying to picture that first evening without anyone to ask what they fancy doing. I could invite someone, but then I'd be arranging their holiday as well. I've saved two places and closed the other tabs. Tomorrow's job is choosing between them, not finding a third.

Au badminton, j'ai enfin retrouvé ce déplacement où les pieds partent sans qu'il faille leur donner les consignes un par un. Les premières minutes après une garde, je joue souvent avec un petit temps de retard, même quand je ne me sens pas fatigué. Là, après l'échauffement, les appuis étaient nets et j'avais du souffle pour aller chercher les volants courts. J'ai beaucoup transpiré, davantage que le score ne le justifiait. Sous la douche, je sentais encore la chaleur dans les cuisses et les avant-bras, mais aucune envie de m'effondrer. Je serais bien resté jouer un set de plus, pour le plaisir de bouger juste.

The traffic across the bridge was slow enough for me to finish all my thoughts and begin them again. By the time I climbed out, my knees felt as though they had been folded too long into somebody else's bag. I walked the first corridor at work slowly, checking doors, and after a few minutes they were moving more freely. Later I took the lift instead of doing the stairs to prove a point to nobody. One of the attendants held it for me and I nearly said I was only using it because I had papers to deliver. Why explain? My legs had carried me there. I stood at the back of the lift and enjoyed those few floors of doing nothing.